Focused, in a distracted sort of way
Recently I’ve been coming across a lot of stress and effort poured into finite-izing creativity- and it’s been an itch I have been aching to scratch out. People who seem extremely eager to organize and put creativity into boxes that shouldn’t be touched or, let out to breathe at all; those guys make me hyperventilate... Continue Reading →
Steel blue veins do not, a heart, make. They don’t seem to pump blood with the pulsing bass note that, brings warmth to the soul. Their cold efficiency instead, causes a rush of thoughts that leave no room for others; Not for their things, or their ideas, or their hearts, never mind souls. Until efficiency... Continue Reading →
Not once did I deign to like you, And yet here you are, always here, always around the corner; Grinning like an idiot and giggling away like a maniac. Let me be clear- your laughter is the soundtrack to my misery. If I didn’t believe in morality, I’d have you exiled- from Life. And I’d... Continue Reading →
At a certain point, I started to take it a little personally that my usual normal self, apparently wasn’t good or impressive enough for the ever changing standards for being “good wife material”. Of course, once the train starts off, the crippling insecurities held at bay, are sure to follow through in full force. When... Continue Reading →
If you ask me what is funny about being days away from turning 29, still decidedly single and of Indian descent? Turns out, a lot- but it probably also depends on how you look at it. If you asked my family, you would think the world was falling apart. If you ask me, it’s one... Continue Reading →
You have taken me prisoner to your wishes, I no longer want any love from you. Your love tightens the noose around my freedom and catches itself on my breath. It muffles my voice and curls my skin into harrowing pits in my stomach It follows me, like a demon that forces itself into everything... Continue Reading →
I am an optimist most days; My world is made of infinite possibilities where everything works out eventually, Where no matter how much my heart hurts today, I may actually be able to laugh tomorrow. But some days, the world presses in harder. Some days the veil wears thin. Some days the world seems keen... Continue Reading →
It took me a while to realize you'd be human, like me. Not perfect, just like me. And probably having loads of things you were procrastinating working on, like me. But no matter how long it took for this realization to finally dawn, I'm glad it happened. Because when it did, it helped me to... Continue Reading →
Falling from heaven, she saw the heart wrench out of her very being. Never before had she felt so lost and numb at the same time. Never before had a heart broken with such pain, so as to turn all things awful. Never before had words failed her. What kind of pain is it, that... Continue Reading →
Why do you make me love you so That the words "supposed to" trigger anger rather than love, That filial piety has extended in meaning to exclude anything else that would dare make me happy. To love me for myself has lost all meaning, when you don't really know me anymore, Only the parts I've... Continue Reading →
Sonia Kurian
Beyond the Surface 